15 Weeks

Size of baby: According to babyzone.com, baby’s about the size of an apple! Apparently it's roughly 4 inches, which means (if I did my math correctly) that it is pretty much exactly the size that I will dilate during labor... too bad I'm only about a 3rd of the way though! lol

Total Weight Gain/Loss: Since I just ate a pretty big Mexican dinner, I'm going to take off 2 llbs and say that I've gained about 8 lbs so far. =)

Maternity Clothes: Still not much of a bump.  My belly is definitely getting rounder, but it still just looks like a food baby over a real one.

Gender: 50% chance of either!

Movement:  Nope.  I hear it could potentially start happening soon though... I sometimes I wonder if I'm going to know what it is right away or if I'm going to freak out and think something's wrong.

What I miss: Not having the spotlight on me.  I'm not someone who likes to be the center of attention, so having people continually comment on it and/or give me advice/articles/suggestions/etc. it hard for me to deal with.

Sleep:  Sleeping pretty well... just wish I could do more of it.

Symptoms: Doing good.  Feel like I'm not getting enough sleep, but I think it's because I'm not. =)

Cravings: I still don't feel like I'm having any cravings outside of the norm.  Today I craved Mexican food, but I would get cravings like that before I was pregnant, too.  I've definitely been known to make french fry and/or blizzard runs in my pajamas. lol

Best Moment this week: Did a Halloween scavenger hunt this weekend and had a great time!  I'm hoping to blog about that (and some other stuff) later.

What I am looking forward to: Getting some new clothes... whenever the need finally comes (I think I'm going to need some new pants fairly soon... but, unfortunately I'm NOT looking forward to that, as I'm so tall it's hard enough to find regular pants.  Anyone know who makes maternity pants with a 35-36" inseam??)

14 Weeks

(This is one of a series of scheduled posts that I've written since I found out that Jacob and I were expecting our first child.  The original composition date is included below).

Oct 18:

Size of baby: According to babyzone.com, baby’s about the size of a lemon!

Total Weight Gain/Loss: Haven't weighed myself this week... and I'm ok with that.  Especially since I ate a LOT of pizza yesterday... and then cried at the TV.  Yup.  I'm pregnant. =P

Maternity Clothes: No real bump yet to have to dress...

Gender: 50% chance of either! =)

Movement:  Nothing yet.  I think I still have a few weeks until anything is supposed to happen...?

What I miss: Daylight.  This whole getting-dark-earlier, getting-light-later thing is messing with me.

Sleep:  Sleeping ok... but I've had a cold for the last week, so it's been a constant struggle between waking up having to pee, or having to blow my nose or cough.

Symptoms: I'm doing ok.  I get these weird little cramps every now and then, and I don't know whether to blame it on baby or gas! lol

Cravings: No real cravings.  Unless you count that last night anything warm and bready sounded good to me.

Best Moment this week: Let everyone at work in on the news.  I sent out an all agency e-mail with the subject line:  Not (just) eating a lot of cake.  =)

What I am looking forward to: Finally starting to think/plan about baby stuff.  I didn't really let myself think/talk about it much during the first trimester (fear), but now I'm starting to feel more confident in the whole thing.

13 Weeks

(This is one of a series of scheduled posts that I've written since I found out that Jacob and I were expecting our first child.  The original composition date is included below).

Oct 11:

Size of baby: According to babyzone.com, baby’s about the size of an egg!

Total Weight Gain/Loss: As of my doctor’s appointment yesterday, I am up a grant total of 7.5 pounds… but my appointment was in the afternoon, so, obviously I weighed a bit more. =)

Maternity Clothes: Nope.  All of my clothes still fit… even if my bridesmaid’s dress last weekend DID make me look pregnant. lol

Gender: 50% chance of either! =)

Movement: Haven’t felt anything yet, but the doctor yesterday said that the little one was quite the mover… she had a hard time getting the heart rate as the little sucker kept doing cat-cow during the ultrasound. =)

What I miss: There isn’t much that I miss right now… everything is going pretty well.

Sleep:  I have a cold… so my sleep last night wasn’t great.  So far I’m not overly congested, but I have a HORRIBLE sore throat that kills every time I swallow… including waking me up in the middle of the night, which then leads to me having to get up to pee. =P

Symptoms: I’m doing ok… just waiting for my baby bump.

Cravings: I haven’t really had cravings at all during the pregnancy so far.  I still love my carbs and dairy, but that’s pretty typical.

Best Moment this week: Seeing my little brother get married this weekend was pretty good… and finally telling the “world” that I’m pregnant felt good, too!  Bring on the second trimester!

What I am looking forward to: Finding out the gender… we have about 6ish weeks to go before this happens, but I’m definitely looking forward to it.

12 Weeks

(This is one of a series of scheduled posts that I've written since I found out that Jacob and I were expecting our first child.  The original composition date is included below).

Oct 4:

Size of baby: According to babyzone.com, baby's about the size of a kiwi!

Total Weight Gain/Loss: I seem to have lost weight since last week, so I’m done to only +5 total.  I’m ok with that. =)

Maternity Clothes: Not yet… but I did buy some new sweaters this week and bought them a size larger than I would have so that I’d have some room to grow.

Gender: 50% chance of either! =)

Movement: Nope, but I’m kind of looking forward to experiencing that.

What I miss: Not much really.  I’m feeling a lot better these days.  This last week just FLEW by.

Sleep:  Still sleeping quite well, with the exception of the nightly bathroom break.

Symptoms: Nothing really.  I seem to be back to “normal” (whatever that was!)

Cravings: I don’t know if it’s a craving or not, but carbs, salt and chocolate.  It’s what I always craved right around “that time of the month”, so I can’t tell if it’s pregnancy related or not. =)

Best Moment this week: Hmm… I don’t know.  Like I said earlier, the week flew by.  I don’t really remember it much!

What I am looking forward to: My next appointment is less than a week away… one week from today, when I have finished my first trimester, we make it “Facebook (and blog) official!”

11 Weeks

(This is one of a series of scheduled posts that I've written since I found out that Jacob and I were expecting our first child.  The original composition date is included below).

Sept 27:

Size of baby: According to babyzone.com, our little one is about the size of a walnut!

Total Weight Gain/Loss: About 7 pounds =(

Maternity Clothes: Not yet… but it’s making my winter wear planning difficult.  I need some new clothes, but I hate to buy anything that I won’t’ fit into in a few months… but at the same time, I don’t want to buy maternity stuff before I actually need to! lol

Gender: 50% chance of either! =)

Movement: I read somewhere that women at my stage MAY feel their baby move but assume that it’s indigestion.  So, maybe? =)

What I miss: Being a “regular” person.  I am not a fan of having a lot of attention on me, and ever since I started telling friends/family/coworkers that I’m expecting there’s been a LOT of attention.  I just want to be “Brittney” for right now.

Sleep:  Still sleeping quite well, with the exception of the nightly bathroom break.

Symptoms: Not a whole lot… I’m feeling pretty good actually.

Cravings: No real cravings… sometimes I wonder if I’m actually pregnant.  It seems to be going a lot “easier” so far than I anticipated! lol

Best Moment this week: Back fence was finished this weekend!  That, in combination with going on a walk/”happy hour” with a friend (I drank a Coke) and having some “girl time”, were the highlights of my week.  Oh!  Jacob’s 30^th birthday party at Bullwinkle’s Family Fun Center was pretty awesome, too! =)

What I am looking forward to: I just booked Jacob and I a weekend getaway in November at Crescent Lake Resort… I’m looking forward to THAT! =)

Not a Good Day

(This is one of a series of scheduled posts that I've written since I found out that Jacob and I were expecting our first child.  The original composition date is included below).


Sept. 27

I feel fat and gross. 

I’m having a really hard time with this weight gain stuff.  I’ve struggled with my weight for years.  I was at my worst a couple of years ago and was able to use the upcoming wedding as motivation to get my ass in gear and start taking care of myself.  I lost roughly 30 pounds between the time that I purchased my wedding dress and the day that I wore it (I needed to get it taken in, when it actually started out being too small!).  I was so proud of myself!  Over the course of the year after the wedding I gained back right around 10 pounds.  At 5’10”, you couldn’t really see it on me that much.  And I was still happy… and my weight was staying steady (if not my ideal, at least I wasn’t gaining more!).

And then I got pregnant, and for two weeks or so I was STARVING ALL THE TIME!  I didn’t necessarily eat a lot of BAD food (sure, there was some cookies and chips, but I was still conscious about what I was putting into my body), but I ate a lot MORE than usual, and a lot of carbs (carbs are “quick food” friendly… at the office at 3 PM, what’s available to eat?  How about a bagel or a bag of pita chips?).  Thankfully my appetite has suppressed a bit, but I still feel like I gained a lot more weight during the first few weeks of my pregnancy than I should have because of it.  I’m up about 7 pounds… and it’s only week 11.  But again, I’m tall and I don’t think it’s THAT noticeable to the casual observer, but I see it.  My thighs and butt have gotten bigger, and I feel like I’m getting the horrid back-fat back. =(  I may just be overly sensitive, but I’m HATING it!  I want so badly to start “dieting” again (calorie counting/portion control… still eat what I want, just in smaller portions) so that I can take off a few pounds… but, I know that I can’t… that I need to be watching out for two people now instead of just myself.  So, I’m (quite literally) sitting on this extra weight for the next several months. 

I’m still trying to be careful about what I eat, and not eat a lot of “empty” foods, and I’m more conscious about the exercise/movement that I’m getting (which has been easier lately as I don’t feel like crap all of the time any more), but it’s still a real bummer to step on that scale and see a number that I vowed I’d never see again (I forgot to give myself the pregnancy-caveat).

OK…. I feel a little better having vented.

10 Weeks

(This is one of a series of scheduled posts that I've written since I found out that Jacob and I were expecting our first child.  The original composition date is included below).

Sept 20:

Size of baby: According to babyzone.com, baby's about the size of a red grape!

Total Weight Gain/Loss: Eh…. I’d rather not talk about it. lol

Maternity Clothes: Still fitting in my regular clothes… hopefully for awhile yet!

Gender: 50% chance of either! =)

Movement: Nope.

What I miss: “Morning” sickness.  I know it sounds weird, but I have been feeling pretty good lately, and it makes me nervous that something is wrong. lol

Sleep: I sleep like a rock when I sleep… but I’m up at least once (if not twice) a night to use the bathroom.

Symptoms: I had some indigestion today… but I don’t know if that was pregnancy related or not.

Cravings: Not really a craving, but I am LOVING all things carb.

Best Moment this week: Not pregnancy related, but getting your ivy-tear-down/fence project started!

What I am looking forward to: Doing more work on our fence.  We hope to have it done/done by the end of next weekend!

9 Weeks

(This is one of a series of scheduled posts that I've written since I found out that Jacob and I were expecting our first child.  The original composition date is included below).

Sept 13: 9 Weeks

Size of baby: According to babyzone.com, the little one is about the size of an olive!

Total Weight Gain/Loss: +5 lbs… same as last week, which makes me feel a little bit better about things. =)

Maternity Clothes: Still (thankfully!) too early for this!

Gender: 50% chance of either! =)

Movement: Nope.

What I miss: Sleeping through the night without having to get up to use the bathroom (last night was a two trip night… I’m tired!).

Sleep: Aside from the gripes above, I sleep like a rock.

Symptoms: Things are starting to get a little better now… just a little tired.  I’m hoping this isn’t the calm before the storm.

Cravings: No real cravings… I haven’t had any aversions yet either.

Best Moment this week: Seeing the baby and hearing it’s heart beat… made it all the more real!

What I am looking forward to: Telling more of our friends… and my brother’s wedding in a couple of weeks (which also happens to be right around our second trimester marker, meaning, after the wedding we go “public” with our big news!).

Our "Bean"

(This is one of a series of scheduled posts that I've written since I found out that Jacob and I were expecting our first child.  The original composition date is included below).

Sept. 12

I had my first OB appointment today and got to see/hear our little “bean” (s/he looks just like a lima bean!).  It was pretty weird.  I didn’t know what to expect from the appointment, so was pretty happy when we were told that we’d hear the heartbeat (not so happy when they told me they were going to have to go in vaginally! Lol).

Ever since our first doctor’s appointment I’ve had this weird fear that I’m not really pregnant.  That something else medically weird is going on with me that is imitating the symptoms of pregnancy and that I’m going to look like an idiot when I have to tell everyone that I’ve told that we’re not actually having a baby.  But NOW I KNOW that there is something in there!  I have photographic evidence! =)  I wonder if it’s going to start feeling more real now…

8 Weeks

(This is one of a series of scheduled posts that I've written since I found out that Jacob and I were expecting our first child.  The original composition date is included below).

Sept 6:

Size of baby: According to babyzone.com, baby's about the size of a raspberry!

Total Weight Gain/Loss: I’m not happy about this… I think I’ve gained 5 pounds so far… which I think is too much.  I secretly hope that I’m actually a month farther along than I think I am… make myself feel better about the weight gain. ;)  I actually just think that I’ve been gorging myself this last week because a) I’ve been HUNGRY all of the time, and b) I’m pregnant… I’ll do what I want! ;)

Maternity Clothes: Hopefully not for a few more months!  All of my normal clothes are still fitting ok.

Gender: I keep finding myself referring to it as a “he”… I don’t’ know what this means.  Maybe, being from my family and Jacob’s (where I’m the only girl) the thought that it COULD be a girl is just weird to me. lol

Movement: Nope.

What I miss: Riding my bike in the mornings.  I know that I COULD, but I just feel so exhausted and nauseous that the thought of pedaling 2.5 miles every morning (and then 2.5 half back that evening), just does NOT appeal to me.

Sleep: Aside from getting up at least once a night to pee (two last night), it’s going alright.

Symptoms: Same ol’, same ol’.  The ravenous hunger has diminished a bit though, so I’m thankful for that.

Cravings: Salt and chocolate… but that’s really nothing out of the ordinary for me. =)

Best Moment this week: Telling our families.  It makes it seem just a little bit more real. =)

What I am looking forward to: Starting to tell some close friends and coworkers… I think my coworkers are already a little suspicious though… I haven’t really been myself lately.

Telling the Fam’

(This is one of a series of scheduled posts that I've written since I found out that Jacob and I were expecting our first child.  The original composition date is included below).

Sept. 5:  

This weekend Jacob and I had dinner with our families to tell them the news. 

For Jacob’s family, we met at his brother’s place to celebrate his brother’s birthday.  Jacob had this plan about how to tell his brother (well, really, his SECOND plan… his first plan* didn’t fly with me!).  Apparently, about 9 years ago at Christmas, Jacob’s brother asked what Jacob wanted for Christmas… and then asked him if a nephew was ok instead… 7 months later, Jacob’s nephew was born.  Since we were gathering for his brother’s birthday, Jacob thought this would be the perfect way to tell the family.  Probably was, his brother TOTALLY didn’t pick up on it!  Jacob gave several clues (it’s expensive but small, you won’t’ get it until April, it starts with an “N”).  It just was NOT happening!  LOL  Finally though, Jacob’s dad caught on (WAY before his brother did) and, slowly, the rest of the family got it.  They were excited for us, of course.  Lots of questions and baby talk followed--in addition to a viewing of the crib that we’re inheriting. =)

Telling my family two days later did not take nearly as much brain power.  I had no idea how I was going to tell them.  Jacob kept asking me if I’d figured it out yet… I hadn’t.  I was just going to go with the flow. =)  I convinced my family to get together to celebrate my birthday (even though it was two-weeks early).  My mother is all about birthdays and celebrations and likes to go all out.  I was feeling like crap that day (and doing my best to hide it), when she introduced us all the obstacle course in the back yard that she thought would be “fun” for us to do. Lol  I thought I was going to die… but I did it. =) 

Then, at dinner, I was trying to figure out how I was going to bring it up in normal conversation… my nephew totally opened the door for me.  I don’t remember exactly what was being discussed, but my nephew made some comment that he was the only “kid” at the table.  I replied with “you won’t be the only kid for too much longer”.  Everyone was quiet for about 2 seconds and then my mother SCREAMED “ARE YOU PREGNANT??” lol  Someone was a little excited. ;)

All in all, it went well.  Jacob and I both noted how nervous we were to tell them.  I don’t know why nerves was more at the forefront than excitement, but they definitely were.  I can’t help but think that, for the last decade I have been doing everything in my power NOT to get pregnant… it just feels so weird to be OK with it now!  Am I just weird?

*Jacob’s initial plan was not to tell his brother at all, and just see how long he went before he asked about my weight gain. =P  Jacob thought it would be funny.  Me?  Not so much!

7 Weeks

(This is one of a series of scheduled posts that I've written since I found out that Jacob and I were expecting our first child.  The original composition date is included below).

Aug. 30: 7 Weeks

Size of baby: According to babyzone.com, he/she's about the size of a blue berry.  I read this a few days ago, and then, unexpected had blueberries for lunch… it was a little awkward. lol

Total Weight Gain/Loss: I think I’m up about 3 pounds.  It’s hard to tell… I’ve fluctuated by a couple of pounds up and down for months.

Maternity Clothes: Still several weeks off from this… I hope!  Though, I did try on my bridesmaid’s dress for my brother’s wedding in October… it’s tight, not gonna lie.  I think it’s because the extra weight has all happened in my chest!  Makes it very hard to close a zipper!

Gender: I know what I feel/hope it is… but I’m not tellin’!

Movement: Way too early I think.

What I miss: TMI aleart… being able to poop. Lol  This is has been my biggest/most life effecting symptom so far.

Sleep: Sleeping like a rock… until I have to pee. =P

Symptoms: Still a little dizzy in the mornings, but have switched up my schedule so that I eat breakfast first thing… that seems to help.  Also a little nauseous… but more “pre-scary-carnival-ride” nauseous than post. ;)   Also have been absolutely EXHAUSTED!  I spent all of last weekend lying around with no energy to do anything.

Cravings: Food, food and more food.  I’m hungry ALL the time!

Best Moment this week: Starting to actually FEEL pregnant.  I think I’ve been in denial, but the symptoms are finally starting to make it feel real!

(P.S.  I hate the word “symptoms”… makes it sound like a disease!  What other word can I use?)

What I am looking forward to: Telling my parents and brothers!  We’re going to go down this weekend (Labor Day) to visit and I’m going to tell them.  Funny side note: I’m actually at my parents right now writing this… but Jacob wasn’t able to come down (I’m here in the middle of the week for a bridal shower), so I need to keep it a secret… so hard!

6 Weeks

(This is one of a series of scheduled posts that I've written since I found out that Jacob and I were expecting our first child.  The original composition date is included below).

Aug. 23: 6 Weeks

(I stole this set up from another lovely mother to be at From Match to Marriage...  I've really enjoyed reading her blog over the last several weeks as I was hiding my secret!)

Size of baby: According to babyzone.com, our little one is about the size of a pumpkin seed… so small!

Total Weight Gain/Loss: I’ve gained a couple of pounds since I last weighed myself, but, after the way I ate last weekend, I suspect that’s more a “food baby” than an actual baby tipping the scale! lol

Maternity Clothes: Still several weeks off from this… I hope!

Gender: I know what I feel/hope it is… but I’m not tellin’!

Movement: Just gas… nothing else. =)

What I miss: Not flinching every time my cat steps on my chest… ow!

Sleep: Better this week than last… I was thinking WAY too much last week!

Symptoms: Getting dizzy in the mornings in the shower… have had to switch to a night shower routine.  Also (TMI warning), having some bouts with constipation… but I hear that that’s normal.  I think my sense of smell has heightened a *little* bit… but it is summer, so they stinkier people on the bus may just actually be stinkier.  Finally, I’m hungry… all the time!

Cravings: Just food in general, nothing in particular.

Best Moment this week: Sitting in the park with Jacob over the weekend and just talking about baby names… was the first time that we’ve had an actual conversation about what is going on inside me!

What I am looking forward to: Telling family and friends.  We’re waiting to tell my family in person, which means we have to wait a little while. =(

Can I Jiggle it Loose?

(This is one of a series of scheduled posts that I've written since I found out that Jacob and I were expecting our first child.  The original composition date is included below).

Aug. 21

I’m petrified of EVERYTHING these days.  Eating the wrong foods (apparently deli meats and soft cheeses are on the no-eat-when-pregnant list… what am I going to eat for lunch for the next 7 months??), not eating the right food, taking medications and, most of all, physical activity.  This is going to sound weird, and feel free to laugh (Jacob did), but I am so scared of shaking the baby “loose”. Lol  It’s so little right now, and just getting it’s “grip” on me.  I’m afraid to ride my bike, I freak out every time I trip on something (and this happens fairly often, I’m pretty accident prone), I freaked out this weekend on a sail boat because it’s motor was jiggling me! It’s getting ridiculous.  Every time I go to the bathroom, I’m scared that there will blood and this whole thing will come crashing down on me.  It’s a horrible way to be living right now.  I’m supposed to be excited and happy.  I’m supposed to be sharing the news with my family… but I’m just worrying so much (I almost burst into tears the other day when I didn’t see a curb and trip a little bit).  I sure hope this gets better!

And It Begins...

(This is one of a series of scheduled posts that I've written since I found out that Jacob and I were expecting our first child.  The original composition date is included below).

Aug. 21

It’s been almost a week since I found out that I was pregnant.  I suspected it a couple of days beforehand, but had “suspected it” before, spent a bunch of money on home pregnancy tests, only to take them, get a negative result, and get my period only a few hours later.  So, this time I decided that I was going to wait until I was a week late before I took one.  And then I changed my mind and decided I was only going to wait five days.  And then I decided that if nothing “happened” by the end of the day I was going to take a test… and then the lunch hour came and I ran to Rite Aid to buy one! =)  I never have been good with patience or surprises. 

So, only four days “late”, and only off of birth control for 3 months, I took a test in the bathroom at work, and… nothing happened!!  No double lines… and not even the “control” single line!  The test just didn’t do anything!  I was annoyed.  But figured it was a sign, so I decided to go back to my last plan and wait until the end of the day to try again.  But, the next time I needed to pee, I was in bathroom again with another test (I’d bought a two pack… it seemed like a good deal) and a paper cup—I wasn’t going to risk user error again by trying to get just the right amount of “stuff” on the stick. 

This time, within seconds, two blue lines appeared.  I was pregnant.  And, of course, I celebrated by pulling out my camera phone and taking a quick shot. =)

I had a very hard time focusing at work for the remainder of the day, but I somehow got through it, taking another quick break to make an appointment with my doctor to verify the home results. 

Jacob picked me up from the transit station that evening after work.  I wasn’t sure how to tell him, or what to say.  So, I e-mailed him the photo I’d taken and waited for him to check his e-mail when we got home.  I think his exact words were “whoa” or something similar.  We were both in shock.  Neither one of us were expecting things to happen quite so fast… but that kind of is our MO, so I don’t know why we were so surprised. 

I was (and still am, a week later) scared shitless.  With some excitement thrown in.  When I asked Jacob how he was feeling, he said, “This should be fun”. =)  Famous last words?

My doctor confirmed the results two days later.  We haven’t told our friends and family yet.  We want to tell our family in person, and with my parents living a couple of hours away, it takes a little bit of planning to make that happen.  Additionally, I’m still a little worried/superstitious/cautious about the “first trimester”, however, as I’ve already illustrated, I am not good with patience, so I don’t think I can bring myself to wait until after the 12^th week to tell people.  It’s killing me right now that I’m not able to shout it from the roof tops and tell everyone I know! =)  We’re going to plan on telling our families over the Labor Day weekend (I’ll be right around 8 weeks at that point).  I will probably tell close friends and coworkers pretty soon after that, and then make the public announcement (i.e. Facebook and blog) when I reach the second trimester.

P.S.  I got a couple of weird "signs" in the days preceding my home pregnancy test... pictures below!

Fortune cookie... I received it the day before I took the test, but still kinda weird

Advertising letter from Gerber... received within the week prior to taking the test. (Don't know why it's sideways, but I can't figure out how to fix it and have decided it's not worth the stress. lol)

News

I haven't blogged much... and I apologize.  But now I can explain!  I HAVE been blogging... just... secretly.  You see, I had some stuff that I wanted to write about, but wasn't ready to make it public, until today... the end of my 13th week. ;)

We're having a baby!

Not the best of images from my appointment yesterday, but apparently the little one is quite the mover!

I've been writing since I found out about 6 weeks ago... and have been TRYING to continue to blog here as well, but it's been complicated to think about anything else. =)

Back in April I had my "yearly" appointment.  I spoke to my doctor about going off of the pill and how long it would take a person like myself (who has been using it for about a decade) to conceive.  I've always had this underlying fear that there was something wrong with me and I wouldn't be able to have children (surprisingly, Jacob admitted the same fear to me), and I figured being medicated for so long (to the point that I no longer even menstruated)  probably wouldn't help matters.  My doctor couldn't give me much information, and just said that different women "bounced back" at different speeds after going off of the pill.  I had her write up a refill prescription, and went home to have a talk with Jacob.

Children had come up.  We both wanted them.  But we'd never really had a SERIOUS conversation about the "when" factor.  When I came home we talked about whether or not I should refill the prescription and, in true Jacob fashion, he told me that we could just "see what happens".  So, I pinned the prescription up on the bulletin board in my office, and finished out the pills I had left.  Three months later, I find out that I'm 6 weeks pregnant.

I know that we were lucky, that some couples have to TRY for a REALLY long time before they conceive, and that others are never successful naturally.  But it really threw us for a loop.  We weren't "trying" we were just not NOT trying.  And, it happened.  It was meant to be I guess, but still kinda freaked me out with the suddenness of it.  I just hope I'm ready for this step!

Over the next week or two I'm going to be posting the tidbits that I've written since we found out the big news.  We are happy, nervous, excited, and still kind of in denial... but definitely looking forward to what the next several months (and years!) have in store for us!