Can I Jiggle it Loose?

(This is one of a series of scheduled posts that I've written since I found out that Jacob and I were expecting our first child.  The original composition date is included below).

Aug. 21

I’m petrified of EVERYTHING these days.  Eating the wrong foods (apparently deli meats and soft cheeses are on the no-eat-when-pregnant list… what am I going to eat for lunch for the next 7 months??), not eating the right food, taking medications and, most of all, physical activity.  This is going to sound weird, and feel free to laugh (Jacob did), but I am so scared of shaking the baby “loose”. Lol  It’s so little right now, and just getting it’s “grip” on me.  I’m afraid to ride my bike, I freak out every time I trip on something (and this happens fairly often, I’m pretty accident prone), I freaked out this weekend on a sail boat because it’s motor was jiggling me! It’s getting ridiculous.  Every time I go to the bathroom, I’m scared that there will blood and this whole thing will come crashing down on me.  It’s a horrible way to be living right now.  I’m supposed to be excited and happy.  I’m supposed to be sharing the news with my family… but I’m just worrying so much (I almost burst into tears the other day when I didn’t see a curb and trip a little bit).  I sure hope this gets better!