Your Biggest Fear
Now for this prompt. I've kind of been dreading writing about this, because it is a real fear that I have, and putting it into words for the world to see if kind of intimidating. I kind of alluding to something with this post but, here it goes...
I'm afraid I may not be able to have children.
I really have no reason to be fearful of this. My fertility has never come into question, however I still worry that once I decide that I finally AM ready for this next life step, I'll realize that it can't happen. I've had some weird medical anomalies over me life (that have never been explained) and I worry that these COULD be related somehow to child bearing (again, absolutely no reason to believe that they would be). I know that there are many other ways to have children, and I am definitely up for these other options. In fact, when I was younger, I didn't even think that I wanted to actually have my own children, but rather adopt... and I still think about this from time to time, but I have also come to the realization that I want to experience pregnancy (not childbirth... I could do without that. lol). I want to know what it feels like to have a little person growing inside of me, and I want to see what Jacob and I can create together (we are going to have some damn cute kids!) =)
The more I want it, the more scared I get. Am I alone with this one? Or is it a common fear among new-parent-aged people?